Never Alone (and other important stuff I guess)

You rescued me, and I believe
That God is love, and He is all I need
From this day forth, for all eternity
I’ll never wander on my own
For I am yours until you call me home
I close my eyes, and I can hear you say
“You’re not alone”, oh oh-oh
“You’re not alone”, oh oh-oh

  Life is somewhat a hardship. We go through so much and often feel so alone. And yet never are not alone, we are never alone. This post is so hard for me to write, Lately I have felt so very alone. I can be in a room filled with people I call my friends and yet still feel completely and utterly alone. Currently it’s 12:40…am…I’ve had a crazy week and the weekend isn’t going to be much better. I feel so tired and yet I don’t want to sleep. I was mindlessly watching YouTube videos when I remembered that I needed to write a new post for here (seeing as my last one was in October of last year…oops)

  I’ve wondered where this blog is going, it’s not my first blog and honestly I don’t know why I continued to blog. I suck. I never remember to write, and when I do I feel like the quality, again, sucks. In general I pretty much suck…or do I? I think we put too much strain on ourselves as a whole. We ask too much of not only others but also ourselves. We forget to put Christ first in our lives. We forget to realize just how much we are worth. We forget that the King of Kings left his heavenly home above, came down as a baby, grew up just like all the other children around him, became a man, and then fulfilled what He was “destined” to do.

  I have no idea what I’m doing or saying right now, it just feels really good to be writing again. I mean, I’ve written a few more “poems” but that writing is different than this. This is more like an open letter to everyone who happens to stumble onto my blog. This is an open letter to anyone and everyone. For so long I have hid, and now it’s time for change. “For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth” (Romans 1:16)


Let’s Talk: Modesty



Oh my, here we go again. It’s the age old debate about modesty. But hey, don’t you worry; I’m gonna clear some things up for you! This post is complied of answers from a few questions that I was asked and I decided that this was the best way to answer them, and also, who honestly wants to read a bunch of Q&A’s? (Okay maybe me but that’s not the point) I thought that it’d be best for me to list the questions that I was asked so you would have a better understanding of what I am going to be talking about. And also you can think about what answers you would have and whether or not you agree with me.

01. What does the word modesty mean to you?
02. How does modesty wrap into a faith with Jesus?
03. Why is modesty so important?
04. In your opinion is it immodest to wear pants/shorts/tank tops/anything above the knee?
05. What are some of your personal favorite verses on modesty?
06. How can someone dress modestly?
07. What are some fashion/modesty tips?
08. How about the tomboys out there-do they have to wear skirts?
09. Is modesty just about the clothes?
10. What do you do about swimsuits?
Modesty is a word that is thrown around in today’s world. Opinions on the controversial subject range from one extreme to the other extreme and just about everything in between. However, most fail to realize what modesty truly is. Modesty is just simply conducting oneself in an appropriate manner, in every place and at every time.

Modesty isn’t just talked about in the Christian community, but rather all over the world. However there is a difference when it comes to us believers and unfortunately it’s often in a negative and condescending light. We all know of the believers that utter things along the lines of;
“Pants are immodest and completely sinful.”
“We should be covering ourselves for the glory of God”
The problem that these believers have is that they forget that Jesus is supposed to be the center of their lives and not modesty, however if you are truly following Christ then modesty comes naturally. Remember modesty is just conducting oneself in an appropriate manner, in every place and at every time. When living for God, it starts off as a choice then it turns into a lifestyle.

Modesty is so very important for everyone, men and women alike. That’s another thing that so many people forget about, that modesty is for everyone, everywhere, all the time. But why is it so important you ask. It’s simply important because the people that we look up to, role models, parents, peers, celebrities, all of these people should be modest, both in their clothing and the way that they act. Someone who is modest is most often (if not all the time) looked up to as a person who is mature and trust-worthy; they have the utmost respect.

Another subject that is so controversial in this debate is which clothes are immodest? I am going to flat out say that none of them are. Please understand that one piece of clothing on one person will look different on another. I know that another heavy and heated discussion is pants vs. skirts. We all need to remember that each person will have a personal conviction about which is modest and immodest. We all know of the Duggars, the family with 19 children. Their choice is skirts (and etc) but they have said that as a family that is what their preference and they do not judge other opinions. Swimsuits are another big conversation, and it’s a tough one. Like what I said before, it’s a personal conviction. With all that said I don’t think we should have boobs or butts hanging out, those are private body parts. But again, that is my opinion.

Modesty is also talked about in the Bible and my favorite verse(s) would have to be Proverbs 31, this woman is astounding and knew what her calling in life was and did it with gusto. We all know the verse in second Timothy and many are critical of it. They just simply misinterpret what Timothy is conveying. All that was meant was not to let things get in the way of serving the Lord, and that applies to everything, not just modesty.

“How can I dress modestly?” Now that is a question that you must answer for yourself. You must decide what you feel you are comfortable in. God will guide you so have an open mind and an open heart and you will find out what is best for you. I’m not going to leave you hanging though; I have some fashion tips for you! If you feel that a shirt is too low you can easily put a camisole underneath it. If your pants/jeans/shorts are hugging your bum, just wear a longer shirt. To be honest, it’s very much in style to have a longer sweater/shirt with pants. Being modest and fashionable has never been easier as it is now.

So we have talked a lot about clothing, but modesty is so much more than that. Modesty is also acting in a right and mature way! I have known people who wore long skirts, long sleeved shirts and no jewelry other than a purity ring and they acted like a slʉt. I am not going to use less harsh words. They acted in a disgusting way and yet they called themselves modest. And that my friend is why modesty is totally more than the clothes. Your behavior is so very important and as Christians we have a bigger example to set for the people around us. In the book of Titus it says; “Older women likewise are to be reverent in their behavior, not malicious gossips nor enslaved to much wine, teaching what is good, so that they may encourage the young women to love their husbands, to love their children, to be sensible, pure, workers at home, kind, being subject to their own husbands, so that the word of God will not be dishonored” (Titus 2:3-5) It is plain to us that we have a calling to be an example to others. (Also in Titus there is a calling to older men to be an example.)

I feel like I could talk forever on this topic but I feel like my point is made; Modesty is more than clothes and we have a calling to be upstanding role models for the generations to come. If you have any questions you can comment them down below!

Wherever We Go

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  Before I die…Bucket Lists….To Do This Summer…We all make these lists, and yet most of us will forget what we write down. It will stay safe tucked away somewhere like a notebook or Pinterest. I am kicking myself so hard right now. There were so many things that I wanted to do Summer 2014 and yet I scummed to the pattern of work and Netflix. (Work I didn’t have a choice on, Netflix I did.) I did do one thing on my Bucket List and that was go to WonderJam, and I had an amazing time! I went with my best friend and we had so much fun! I even got to meet Lecrae, even though we were supposed to meet Jamie Grace but long story short I messed up the times for the meet up and sooo there you go.

  I was trying to figure out a more…personal post for you guys. I wanted you all to know what I have been up to. And well…therapy. I always joked that when I was older that I was going to need therapy…little did I know that I was in fact going to need it. But don’t be alarmed, it’s nothing really serious and so far I have only had one session and I’m not the only one going; my parents are going too. I guess I know so little about what really happened to me when I was younger, a whole ton of crap went down and yet I don’t blame my parents one bit. One set of Grandparents are in a cult and the other set is divorced with one living in a nursing home and the other all the way in Winnipeg. Growing up I knew that there was a God, I knew that Jesus had come down and died for us but…none of it really seemed that…”real to life” I mean it was a nice story but I never fully realized that it actually happened.

  I don’t even really know what I’m saying here. I guess that since everything came crashing down I finally experienced God for the first time. Lately He has been REAL and ALIVE in my life in a very big way. For those of you who don’t know I haven’t had the easiest of times since I turned…14 I think. It’s a super long complicated story and if I was honest, I am tired of telling it. I don’t want to live in the past anymore. But I’m getting ahead of myself here. I just want to say that even though I have been though so much, I’m still living. I’m still here. And even when I wanted to die (and tried) something always stopped me. And I know now that it was God, and the reason why….I know it now. It’s because of one simple truth. I am loved; and guess what, I love who I am. I am pretty cool. I am weird, I am wonderful, I am beautiful, I am preppy, I am goth, I am punk, I am this-and-this. But above all; I am a child of God. And wherever I go, it’s because HE has called me to be there. So whether it’s working as a cashier at Mcdonalds or backpacking through Italy, I will serve God.

  Wherever We Go. That’s the promise that we make, and God makes a similar promise, that He will be there no matter what storm we face. So it doesn’t matter to me where I am living or what I am doing because I know that the ultimate goal is to serve Him and become like Jesus. I don’t care if I’m “rich” or “poor” because he is enough. He is all I need, and I am content. I started out this post with the intent of writing about how we should create more reasonable “Bucket Lists” but then I realized that I wanted to write about so much more; and yet when I try to write it all out, it’s never in order…really frustrating to be honest. It’s late and I’m really tired so I think I’m just going to end it here for tonight. If anyone would like to talk with me just visit the contact page for my info

Letting Go│Letting God

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  People talk about “letting go.” Like just let go of the pain, let go of what holds you down or back. Let go of people that hurt you. Move on and let it go. (and here we pause to belt out the all too familiar song from Frozen. Come on I know you want to!) But I have a something for you to ponder on, what if instead of letting it go, you simply just let God. I know I know, you are sitting there and thinking “But Rebekah, what on earth do you mean Let God? Let God what? Take control of my life? Let him worry about the hard stuff? Let him deal with the tough people? No no no, God is WAY too busy to take on my day to day stuff. nah I’m just gonna deal with it.”

  So, uhm, how’s that working for you? How happy are you really? I know, you are unhappy. You are stressed. You feel like any day now you are going to rip out your hair and sink to the floor and cry. Or just sink to the floor and sob like a new-born baby. Hey there’s no shame in admitting it, we have ALL been there. In fact that was me a few weeks ago. Life seemed to just hate loath me and no matter what I did I couldn’t do things right. I couldn’t fix my unhappiness. Even when everything came crashing down and my parents were there to help me, I still wasn’t happy. (I had made some bad decisions and got caught up in some stuff that wasn’t good) Then it hit me. I was letting go, but I wasn’t letting God. I was letting go of the bad stuff but there was no where for it to go really, it just sat in the back of my head where I didn’t realize that I was still thinking about it. So then I decided that enough was enough. I needed to take it to the one person that could deal with all of this the right way.

  When I gave over my issues, troubles and cares to God, everything changed. The Psalmist wrote it perfectly “Cast your burden on the Lord,and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.” (Psalms 55:22) There is a promise there that if we give over our burdens (or our cares; see 1 Peter 5:7) to God that things are going to be so much easier. No, that doesn’t mean that we are going to live a perfect life and the reason for that is the fact that we don’t live in a perfect world. Life is never going to be easy but for me there is huge comfort in knowing that I don’t have to do this all alone. Yes, I have great family and friends and an amazing church family but above all I have an AWESOME God who will never let me go. (oh the irony) 

  So I am inviting you all to join me in the process of Letting God. I want you all to experience the great joy and relief of letting God take over of your troubles. Watch as your stress level lowers and watch as you become happier. Once you let God have your issues, watch as the people around you start asking why you are a much better person. In fact you may get asked if you are on drugs (My manager at work swore that I was either high or drunk) In fact, I want you to get high. I want you to get drunk. I want you to get high and drunk on the Lord. I dare you to become so in love with him that strangers come up to you and ask you why you are so happy. That is my dare for you.




Love and pain
Loss and gain.
All just part of the
Unending game.
I guess if we were
To stop and believe
In something more
A smile would host permanent
On every frowning canvas.
Bleeding hearts are stabbed
We lovers are one and the same.
Who would care to hold a frail body, broken and bruised?
Why would we stop and think about those around us?
Loving, hating, all part of the unending game.
The unending game that we just so happen to call….Life.
(I wrote this please give credit if you want to use it elsewhere)

Death’s Song Has Been Sung

Say hello to days ahead
Say goodbye to words unsaid
I am no longer living free
But rather under lock and key
I am a slave to my own ways
And all time is in a daze

No matter how hard you try
All I hear is a lie
I have shut everyone out
When asked what this is about
Now for the truth to be told
Listen because I am quite bold

Once I loved a man
In a far off land
But a joker was he
and fooling only me
so here I like, ready for one
and death’s song has been sung

(I wrote this so please give credit if you want to use it elsewhere)

I can now fly

(Just a little poem/short story thing that I wrote)

I can now fly

Ragged breathing.

I open my eyes. I can hear the beeping of the machine. Then I see it. I’m in the hospital. There’s an IV in my right hand. I blink rapidly. My breathing is shallow almost forced really. My body aches all over. I look down at my legs, they are in casts under a flimsy sheet. I take a deeper breath but instantly regret it. My chest feels like it’s on fire. All I can hear is the steady beeping and muffled speech outside the door at the far side of my room. I am so tired but every time I close my eyes the memories come rushing in.

Lamp on the ground
-yelling again-
-going up stairs-
Ragged breathing.
(Flashback ended)

I could still feel the air rushing past me…the ground closer and closer with each passing second. The tears being flung upwards as my numb body plunged down. I shake my head. I don’t understand. How am I here?

door opens
mum walks in
places flowers on the table
walks out

It’s now been 3 weeks since I jumped. I’m still in the same bed. Only getting up if I have to. Mum hasn’t come back. Doubt she will. Best friend came. She tried talking with me but ended up leaving in tears. I stare at the clock. Wishing that I wasn’t here.

Nurse came in and said I was moving rooms. Just down the hall though. I share this room with a boy. Looks like he broke his arm.

I’ve lost count of how long I’ve been here but I haven’t talked at all. Doctor and dad came today to chat. They said that I could go home.

Car door shuts

We arrive home. Brother is on the Xbox in his room. I go to mine and curl up on the bed. I fall asleep. I dream.


I open my eyes. I can’t so this anymore. I get up.

Pour them down
Drink water
Sink to the floor

I close my eyes and find peace

I now can fly

Ways to reconnect with God

If you are like me, you are really busy. I mean like, I have a job and I work a lot and on top of that, I have chores to do at home, and of course I will then want my own free time. Add all that up and my day is pretty much filled. Or is it? My mother will laugh at what I’m about to say, but I spend a little bit too much time doing…well…Netflix. Okay okay I admit it, I’m addicted. I hate spending my time in vain (even though I do want to know what happens next in supernatural) I know that I have neglected this blog so I’ve made a goal to do at least two posts per week till the end of September. I have no idea what I’ll be posting though. Okay okay I’m talking too much so lets move on. :p

If you read the post name you know what this is about. If not go read it now….okay yay know you know! (Also I got this idea from Girls-4-God)

Ways to reconnect with God


It’s no surprise this is on the top of this list. With bands like Hillsong and Jesus Culture being so popular many teens are coming back to God. So grab your iPod and download these 10 songs now.

•Oceans by United
•Let it Rain by Jesus Culture
•You Are by Colton Dixon
•Wake by Young and Free
•Broken Vessels (Amazing Grace) by United
•Fighter by Jamie Grace
•Overcomer by Mandisa
•Steal My Show by tobyMac
•Scandal Of Grace by United
•Cornerstone by United

Go for a walk

So you just got new music, what a perfect way to go and focus on the Lord! And hey, you get exercise too! And it doesn’t have to be a walk either you could run, jog, bike, hike, or fast walk! Just get off your butt and unto your feet and focus your mind on God! (Please focus when you cross roads!!)

Start a prayer journal 

Write down any prayers that you or others have, don’t forget to jot down when they are answered! Sharing with God what you have been thinking about will help with how you feel, don’t keep it all bottled up inside.

Count your blessings

Somewhat like the prayer journal, just write down all the good things that are in your life. It can be anything to a car or just your cat! It will actually make you happier once you see all the good things that you have!

Start a Bible study with your friends

Sometimes it can be hard to connect with God on our own so grab your friends, your Bible and get together! You could go to Starbucks or just even hang out at home! If you are stuck on what to study then just have everyone jot down a few questions that y’all could talk about and see what the Bible says!


New Name and New Look

Hey there gals! Man it has been a long time since I have sat down and written a post. As you can see, this blog is no longer named beautifulapostale and it has a new look! The main reason for this was because I felt like the name just wasn’t working. Personally I have been going through a lot of changes and knew that it would be best to give my blog a make over. Another thing that you may notice is that a lot of the posts are gone. I knew that they were messy looking and not the best that I could do- so out the door they went!

Why the name Daydream Notebook? Well, I loved the phase ‘Stuck in her daydream” but it was too…overused. So I turned to my friends for help and my lovely friend (whom we call Panda) suggested Daydream Notebook and I knew right away, that was the name. Originally I was going to have this blog for fashion and beauty but I quickly realized that I needed to blog more than just that. I need to blog about life, about it all, no matter how messy it may get. This is just a filler post to update y’all on where I have been and what I have been doing. Please hold on as I finish up creating the blog to be what it needs to be.



Count It All Joy?

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“James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ, To the twelve tribes in the Dispersion: Greetings. Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.”  James 1:1-4

“Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.” James 1:12

These verses along with the Question: ”What does is mean to be joyful in times of suffering?” Where the subject of discussion at FNY (Friday Night Youth) this past Friday. If you have read this post you will know that a lot of things have happened, and not all of them are great things. If you read the post you would know that I struggled with the feeling of disappointment and thus I was unhappy.  So, guess who has a sense of humor. Yup, God.

What did God do exactly you ask me. Well, God decided to place things in my life to show me what I needed to learn, and the biggest lesson is what I am sharing today. That lesson would be “Count all joy”  So today I have with me my notes from FNY along with God’s written word and my own convicted heart. I hope that I am able to be God’s instrument in stirring your heart.

James, the 20th book in the New Testament. And it is very much like the sermon on the Mount, but on steroids. It is written by James, he was the half brother of Jesus. You can imagine how that went over at family gatherings. Not only did you have the brotherly bickering, but there was the fact that they weren’t even full brothers! But nonetheless, James knew (at least when it was revealed to him) that Jesus was the Son of God and that he was here with a divine purpose.

James opens his letter to the 12 tribes in the Dispersion as follows; “James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ, To the twelve tribes in the Dispersion: Greetings”  Right off the bat James makes himself known of who he is. He isn’t James, the brother of Jesus. He isn’t James, the son of Mary. No, he is James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ. The next important thing he does is he basically says “Hi!”  There is no better way to start a conversation then the good-old “Hi!”

James just dives all in after that, he goes on to say “Count all joy, my brothers and sisters when when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.” (Italics added) Now I know what you must be thinking, “Uhm James, do you mean that we are supposed to be happy when bad stuff happens to us?” You are right…and wrong. You are supposed to be joyful and happiness is a different story. But to understand this, you need to understand the difference between Joyfulness and Happiness.


1. State of mind.

2. Something short term.


1. It’s a deeper (more meaningful) feeling

2. It’s an identity

  So now hopefully you can see the difference between Joyfulness and Happiness. One lasts for a little amount of time while the other lasts indefinitely. An example of this would be “Even when I am depressed (unhappy) I am joyful because I am alive!” Now that we fully understand how these two words are different, we can move on to perceive what else James was trying to convey.  

  “Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds,” (James 1:2) Here James is telling us to be joyful when trials (sufferings, hardships etc) come our way. Verse 3 says, “for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.” All this means something so very simple, and to put it in more modern words, this is what James is telling us; “Dudes! When something bad happens be joyful that you are alive and take this as an opportunity to grow stronger in your faith!”

  Stronger by Kelly Clarkson, we have all heard this song whether we realize it or not. The chorus is this;

“What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn’t mean I’m lonely when I’m alone
What doesn’t kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn’t mean I’m over cause you’re gone”

  Kelly conveys the age out fact that if you aren’t dead after something happens, you are stronger in some shape or form. When you go through a trial, most times when you come out the other side of it, you have your head held high, you “Stand a little taller.” The next part is tricky, “Doesn’t mean I’m lonely when I’m alone” As Christians we are never really alone, because we have Jesus there 24/7 and even though we can’t see him nor feel him, he is very much with us. The following part “What doesn’t kill you makes a fighter, footsteps even lighter.” Have you seen guys in professional fighting? Have you seen how they seem to “bounce” on their toes? As fighters they have been trained to block the “enemies” attacks. These fighters have been taught to “Float like a butterfly, sting like a bee.” They are light on their feet and strong in their hands/arms. This happens very much the same to anyone who goes through a suffering or a hardship. They learn to be light on their feet but strong in their “attacks.”

  Kelly is obviously talking about a past boyfriend in her song, so her song is about love and romance but the book of James is talking about trials of all kinds, he tells us that we are to “Count it all joy” in every calamity that we may face in life. James is saying that our faith will become stronger through these difficult times, but only if we have Jesus. See, Christians have a different world view (or at least we should) while most people are going about their daily lives, they are not going to have this “Everything is awesome” world view. No, they are going to be stressing over a many great deal of things, the biggest one being that they don’t understand what their purpose in life is.

  Fellow Christians can agree with me when I say that our greatest and most important purpose in life is to serve Jesus with a joyful heart and everything that we have to offer and even more beyond that. We have (or should have) this very joyful outlook on life, and why? Because we know what happens when our time on earth is at its very end. We know why we are on earth, we have the understanding on what we are ultimately are commanded to accomplish. I, with my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, know that our call is to serve a great powerful wonderful God. Therefore, we have (or should have!) a joyful spirit about this life.

“Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.” (James 1:12) The crown of life, the everlasting life. This is why I, as a Christian have no fear in death. I know that if I serve my God with everything that I have, I know what will happen. But mistake me not, I don’t do good for a reward; No, but rather because it is what I must do. I do the will of God because there is simply nothing else that I can do. I am lost without my heavenly Father. So I am blessed because I remain strong in my faith when misfortune happens in my life. I remain loyal to God, I do not give up on him. Very much like Job; he had everything taken away from him and yet through it all he did not waver in his faith. And why? He knew that his God, the God of all, was more powerful and all this happened for a reason. Job and many others in the Bible and people today know that when someone means you evil, God turns it into something good. A learning experience for you or for others around you.

Here is a short summery on what these verses mean.

James 1:3 – the trials that we go through produce steadfastness, patience, loyalty, determination, 

James 1:4 -through these trials we become more spiritual mature

 James 1:12 – we will receive the Crown of life, everlasting life. 

I think that James communicates quite clearly on this subject, Be joyful through trials, it’s gonna make your faith stronger buddy! And hey, at the end, you are going to have eternal life! There are a few more verses that you can read on your own that go along with all of this. Galatians 5:22, Ecclesiastes 2:26, Romans 5:1-5 and Psalms 51:12. Thus this message is finished, but I will leave you with this;

When we put our faith in God — He provides!!